It Hurts...

in case you might be thinking whether this is another "lovey" post, i assure you that there's nothing of tt sort..

this few days, im on e verge of a mental breakdown..seriously, i think i might just go bonkers any moment..my head hurts so much that i feel like racking my brains out of its skull..thoughts, thoughts and MORE THOUGHTS!!! FUCK IT! people always ask me not to think so much or limit my thoughts..they thought i was stupid because i often think too much and create troubles for myself..now, i'm going to repeat myself again..IF I COULD FUCKING CONTROL THE FREQUENCY OF THOUGHTS, I WOULD HAVE DONE SO ALREADY!

infinite voices are screaming in my mind every now and then..they're irritating me! but i cant do a damn thing about it..everytime i tried, e success was short-lived..im really going berserk..whenever there's a wall in front of me, i just feel like crashing my head into it..i wanna end this pain..i dont wanna suffer anymore..

maybe i should consult a psychiatrist soon..i really cant take this anymore..all the negativite feelings are bottling up inside me..hatred, anger, irrtated, frustrated, etc..

i'm going to defeat the devil inside me, all by myself..while i'm fighting, i dont want any comment or interference from anyone..if i lost the battle, please wake me up..