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what do you find in the newspaper everyday? two nations unleashing hell in a central park? chelsea splurging millions of dollars on yet another "star player" when people are suffering from poverty in third world countries? a decapitated corpse was found in a cupboard of a motel whereas the head was squeezed into a tiny milo tin with the brain juices oozing out? similar news has been featured on the newspapers day after day and people never really get sick of it ya? as technology advances, new weapons are invented and tested in wars between countries such as iraq and pakistan..now, kiling in war has evolved beyond bullets and bombs..we torture the enemies till their very last breath with incredible bio-weapon..it causes cells to explode in one's body and tears the heart apart through muscle strengthening? well, thats my imagination with no apparent knowledge bout all these stuff.. amazing enough, a stranger to the global and local news like me woke up at 8am, sat down on t

im feeling very bored now..so here i am, blogging..lol.. i dont know what to write though.. any suggestions? national day? nah, not interested..the celebrations are so similar all these years..cant they come out with something more interesting and different? exams? nope, im not going to stress myself out again.. piano? well, im currently playing lizst and mozart.. food? my mum's cooking tom yam tomorrow..yeah! lol..=p love? come on, i have so many things to attend to and there's no time for me to look for a girlfriend ya? emotions? mixed? BORED!!! that is definite..ha.. ambitions? i want to be a great figure on an international level..it's fine if you doubt me now because i admit to my weaknesses..however, you will soon notice some changes in me..very soon..im going to be greater than you can ever imagine.. me? arrogant, ambitious, lazy, emotional, strict on others, bad at social interaction, greedy, easily provoked and horny?! lol.. am i a good lover? well, it'

When i knew that your friend is coming to our house, i took an hour off just to do the groceries and get all the stuff required..u didn't ask me to.. I FUCKING DID IT MYSELF!!! u know why? BECAUSE I CARE ABOUT YOU, YOUR FRIENDS, AND EVERYTHING ELSE RELATED TO YOU!!! and what did i get in return? ur insults and ur sarcasms..do u think i deserve all these? DO YOU THINK I FUCKING DESERVE ALL THESE??? just because you're my mum, it doesnt give you the rights to poke a finger into every aspect my life.. STAY OUT OF MY LIFE IF ALL YOU KNOW IS INSULTING ME!!! i had enough of all this crap and im not going to allow it to happen again.. IF YOU THINK THAT YOUR SON, YAP MING JIE, IS A FUCKING LOSER, YOU BETTER CHANGE YOUR OPINION OF ME! i love you mum , but is that how you love me? by calling your a piece of junk in front of your friends, is that how you show care and concern for me? do you know how hurt i feel? DO YOU KNOW HOW FUCKING PAINFUL IS IT FOR ME??? by now, u should know why

WTH?! i created an entry last night and i witnessed it being posted up with my very own eyes..MY VERY OWN EYES!!! and guess what??? IT'S GONE!!! G-O-N-E!!! WTH?! i decided not to post it up again because i cant remember what i had written now..anyway, this morning i slept at 4am and woke up at 8am..u must be wondering why i only slept for 4 hours despite not having any activity in the day..actually, i didn't choose to wake up but i had no choice..still in my dreams, i felt a terrible itch at my right eye..so, i rubbed it a little..however, instead of the itch going away, it intensified..unable to bear the itch anymore, i decided to walk to my kitchen and wash my eye at the sink.. damn! it didn't help at all.. what could it be , i thought to myself.. i went into the toilet and looked into the mirror.. HOLY SHIT!!! something was swelling at the edge of my eye..it's big and red and looked ABSOLUTELY GROSS!!! i was rooted to the spot.. what the hell is that?! when i was

for this 17 years, what have i achieved significantly? the answer is nothing .. while i was pondering over what i should include in my lyrics ystd at KAP's mac, i realize that i couldn't do a shit about it..do u noe y? this is because i don have good command over my languages at all..for the past 10 years, i was taught the proper usage of languages in my primary and secondary schools..for 10 damn years, i have been fooling around and not realizing tt languages could be so important in life..i thought, if i have the right tools for work and a little intelligence, why do i need languages then..sounds relevant ya? if i have e brains to create wonders, y shld i need to know about english and chinese? i was wrong..i commited this grave mistake for 17 years..languages are so damn important in our lives and we just cant go far without good command of it..languages are tools for effective communication..u need to know how to express urself in the right way so that others can understand